and now, i will talk about my actual birth day. monday, october 26.
after much stress, unresolved issues and staying up really late all from my job the night before, i woke up feeling really crappy. to add to that, the whole "I'M 30" matter was already taking it's toll. it was weird watching the clock the night before change from 11:59 to 12:00 and know that, just like that, i was getting old. so when i went to bed, i was feeling pretty sorry for myself. i climbed in and got mad that my sleeping husband didn't wake up to wish me a happy birthday. yeah, i know, pretty lame. but sadly, it gets worse. when i woke up and realized there were no cards or presents from russ and the kids, again i got upset. of course, my wonderful husband tried to explain that had planned to give me my gifts and celebrate after he got home from work that night, like we ALWAYS do with our birthdays every year. i don't know what i expected -- a party in my bed, music, dancing, fireworks, i'm not sure. but obviously i was feeling a little down on myself. i had my first meltdown of my 30's that morning.
during the day, no one really called to say happy birthday which of course made me feel even more sorry for myself. i know that since we celebrated my birthday at my party that saturday before, everyone probably forgot about my actual birthday, which is completely understandable. but again, WOE IS ME, i just wasn't feeling special enough. on top of that the issues with my job just escalated and became major drama. (how is it that i work from home at night on an "as-needed" basis and STILL have to deal with work drama!)
other than natalie going to school, we had no other plans for the day. so i just hung out with my little russell.
now here comes the HAPPY part. (finally, right? -- i was starting to feel depressed just typing that out)
knowing how bad of a day i had, russ tried extra hard to make me feel better. he suggested that we eat out for dinner so i didn't have to cook. (sounds good to me!) he got home from work with a bouquet of sunflowers to brighten my day. and then he and the kids presented me with my gifts, which he picked out so perfectly for me. after we ate our delicious dinner at bucca di beppo, we went to the mall to pick up the cookie cake that russ had ordered for me -- my FAVORITE!
do i have a wonderful husband, or what?!


by the end of the day, i had received numerous e-mails, messages and phonecalls, even a couple of birthday song serenades, and i was feeling pretty darn special! how silly of me to think that no one thinks i'm special when all around me i am reminded of all the love i have in my life. i have everything i could possibly want; all i need to do is OPEN MY EYES!
thanks again for all the birthday love, everyone.
and thank you to the best husband in the world for putting up with my bad attitude and for literally turning my frown upside down :)
i'm deeply touched and humbled by all the love i recieved and it truly meant a lot to me.